Lavender 

I grew up out in a very rural area to a family that works in rhe dirt. I wandered the woods with my dogs and cats, and preferred Hot Wheels over Barbies. I played ice hockey in high school and college. I ride a motorcycle. I work in healthcare. I have 1 teenage son and 3 dogs. I am a homebody, not a barhopper or a clubber. I love ice cream. The Shawshank Redemption is my favorite movie of all time, but I love the Tolkien films, and many of the 90s comedies like Happy Gilmore and Tommy Boy. I like country and rock music mostly, but I like a lot of music with a good voice. I can't dance for shit. I am often quiet in groups, but I can be pretty verbally expressive (most of the cursewords stay in my head but I can't contain them all sometimes lol). I can be a little slower to trust due to a long abusive relationship. I long for a feeling of safety and genuine concern for my wellbeing. I'm tired a lot. I like to be held. If I had someone who made me feel safe again, I could set down some of this worry I have to lug around every day, and I could relearn how to be more feminine. There is still a girl in there who would wear sundresses and run around barefoot. She just hasn't been in charge for a while. I think this is why I am drawn to ABF. I really miss that connection, and that giving part of myself.